You were there and now you are not there
Like a sick dream I had
When I was young
It feels like there is a reason for all this pain
But why?
You glide through my memories like oil onto water
Rolling pain through me like being mixed in a blender
You make me want to give up
I dream of you at night
Like I see you but not sure why
Ghosts aren’t real
Till you feel like one is screaming to get back in
Back into your dreams
Back into your nightmares
Back into your daily life
Haunting, cold and unfeeling
Growing even bigger
Till I can’t stand it any longer
Pain running through my very soul
Causing everything I do to be full of pain
But then
Its no longer a dream
Its no longer a nightmare
No longer part of my daily life
At least that is what the doctors say
For now, I am free
But it won’t be long
Till you crawl your way back in
And the pain returns
And around and around we go
Till the day comes where I say enough is enough
And I decide to deal with it on my own terms…
Copyright March 12, 2025 Kim Snyder
When they say cancer affects everyone in some way, is the truth. I lost my best friend last year after 6 years of fighting cancer. Now I just lost a family member to cancer. They went out on their own terms, and I can understand why, no matter how much it hurts. Cancer touches everyone in one way or another. My answer in one way of dealing with the pain is to write poetry which is why I am sharing this poem with you today.
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